Yeah I didn't mean to imply that you didn't try hard at the therapy that you did...my point was that cbt doesn't actaully deal with deep underlying issues it just fixes the surface stuff but even that is helpful to an extent. So I don't know much about the kind you did...my therapy exposure is limited but to me reexposing the issues might not even be helpful. So when I was dealing with anger knowing it was irrational did nothing for me and trying to reframe it in some way just made me angrier still because I was right...so anything with cbt that involves anger to me is total bs. Rethinking the original stimulus just makes it worse. I was only suggesting using some of the cbt toolset like a bandaid for the things that it can fix not the actual trauma...