Used to. When I was bad depressed and eating disordered I would drink whatever alcohol I could find and have some DayQuil with it first thing in the morning, caffeine to pick me up, lorazepam to loop me up, then at night either NyQuil or just straight up ketamine to trip me up and get me to sleep. I would also cut myself up.

This was... Wow, early last year. I don't do this anymore. I got caught with cocaine and MDMA (not by cops or anything - and I never got to use any of it) and got help.

Sometimes I drink secretly and sometimes (like unfortunately right now) I engage in disordered eating, but I try to keep it under check.

It sounds sick but part of me kind of misses it. Especially tripping on ketamine.

I also got drunk off of Listerine once. Had the worst stomach cramps ever the next day...

DONT DO ANY OF THIS OKAY. I WAS IN A REALLY BAD PLACE.

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