I haven't cut since August and I am so proud of that! My old cuts are healed and almost not noticeable. But I have been triggered so much in two weeks its unbearable. I want to cut if I have to to keep my anxiety down from taking hold of my life and all that ive accomplished in a year. Its worse at night, like it has been before I stopped. I get paranoid and will see things at night too. I have been fine mentally since April, and have slowly stopped my Zoloft. I am not depressed, I am just really anxious because my life is so unstable right now. The safest place has just become unsafe and I feel very ashamed with my mom to see new cuts. But I cant hide my cuts from my mom, because I wear shorts and tank tops during the summer, and swim a lot. Although cutting this time will come with a great deal of shame, I still get triggered and all I can think about is that release after the cut.