I agree with Plzsti. You've got enough on your plate for four or five people---frankly I'm happy you're doing as well as you are. I think I'd be bat-crap crazy with all you've got going on.

I think all you can do when the paranoia hits is to remind yourself that this, too, shall pass---it always does with us BPs. I don't know if this will help you, but when I get paranoid, I talk to myself OUT LOUD and remind myself that my interpretation of the situation is not correct---the neighbors are NOT spying on me, in fact, they don't give a rat's arse about me. That car isn't following me up my road because the occupants mean to do me harm. The government is not out to take away my freedoms (well, yeah, they are, but that's a whole other discussion).

Just thought I'd throw that out there, it doesn't work for everyone but it does help me more often than not.