Sorry Amandalouise I was trying to say I wasn't experiencing co consciousness and not looking at one's decision. I should have worded it better.

It was more a moment where things I couldn't explain before, and questioned, finally made sense. Yet each of these happened after major stress. These things were total opposite of how I am. I accepted it, tried to figure it out, but never really made any sense. Now they do.

I talked to someone from my past whom I knew I could trust, would not judge and with his field I wouldn't have to explain what the condition was. He also knew I had a traumatic childhood. He was very supportive. He said he found me very confusing at times. One example he gave was how I felt towards something would change to the total opposite - even in the same day. He tried to figure it out, but never could and he's a very intelligent guy.