Hey birdpumpkin sometimes all we can do is put one foot in front of the other. It sounds like you are doing that the past 6 months sound like they have been extremely difficult I could not imagine losing so much. Hang in there you have plenty of fight left in you. See if there any support groups around that possibly you could join. Keep talking to all of us because we do care. You may want to talk to social services in your area and see if you could get little to no cost for therapy. You are doing the right stuff just keep pushing forward.