Sometimes I can see someone over me holding me down on the ground, then I hyperventilate and can't stop it. My partner has to get me out of the position I'm in and hold me. I eventually calm down. Then like last night I was watching orphan black from last week and thy were doing a bone marrow harvesting. I started shaking and all I could see was me on that table. I was a donor 2x as a child by force.