I was denied the opportunity to go to a partial program near my home. Instead I am supposed to go to one that is linked with my PCP which is 1.5 - 2 hours away from my home. We only have one car and the train doesn't go near the facility, so I won't be going anywhere.

I'm not strong enough to contest this and if I change my PCP, I lose all of my services at the facility I currently get everything, which is near my work.

I feel quite hopeless right now. I'm nearly in tears at work again, but have to somehow get through. I keep taking days off and it's looking bad even though I have intermittent FMLA to take days off. If I can't get any hope soon I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I have no hope of ever getting into work that will make me feel rewarded or feel good about my life. I also don't do well at home with my family except that I can just zone out and play video games. My wife probably hates having to take care of me like this, but I can't even cope with getting my own medicine half the time. Plus my kids aren't getting any time with me and I won't go outside on weekends. It's turning into a losing battle.