"I go to a place where I meet people who Mr to my college and people like them. It stirs it up. Maybe it hurts me. Maybe I hope to have someone to tell it to who will know what o lost." quote Teacake

"Then I got to a college where my needs did matter, and I got traumatised but no one index least of all myself. " quote Teacake

I actually "can" relate to this "mood" Teacake. I was traumatized and I didn't get what I needed when those college years came either. When I am told that I am gifted I do get moody and even angry tbh. The couple of times I had highly educated psychologists/psychiatrist tell me I was gifted and "should have been or should be", I get triggered and even angry, it feels like a kick in the head. I also know what it feels like to end up being the adult, when what I really wanted was a presence that was an adult over me instead, with real answers that helped "me" instead of me being that for others.

Actually, I connected to that movie Good Will Hunting a lot as I had been doing the same thing as Will had been doing, not in it, but around it. I also could see where he met all different "so called scholars and authors" and they didn't have what he needed, so why bother, "especially with talk therapy". You said, "Oh, wouldn't it be nice to get a hug and be all better to go off and see about a girl". But, there was so much more to that movie than that. He was around others that were not gifted, and when one of them was being picked on at that bar, what did he do? That scene had so much to it. And while there were no labels presented, he was "putting a Narcissist in his place".

However, while he was clearly gifted, he was also "hurt" and chose to live in a structure that he felt safe in. Robin William's character was doing the same thing, a hurt person choosing to find a safe life structure where he would not have to "feel" so much, because he was hurt too. In that last moment, what was beautiful about it was that "both of them needed to share that last moment" but could not find the right person to do that with.

When he attacked Robin Williams, yes, he succeeded in hitting a core and got him angry. Robin Williams was shown doing what? He talked about it, then he came across a thought and slept like a baby remember?

That scene where Robin Williams brought him to that bench had a lot in it too. Actually, he was touching on the same thing you do and have "moods" about. Yes, you mourn about it because you can give the skinny on it, but you have not really "touched the touches and smelled the smells".

In the scene where Will lashed out at this girl he liked so much, he was actually describing himself as a "freak" too. Yes, there was a lot of anger and fear in that scene too.

I felt the writer of that movie was "gifted", and not everyone is going to see how very much, but I felt there was a lot said in that movie and I see something new each time I come across it and watch it.

I just saw that movie again recently, in the end where Will finally got to express his emotional disturbance with Robin Williams, I noticed that as he wept and let it out he also said, "I am sorry", I found that significant because I have found myself feeling that and saying it here and there too. Every now and then I see different members say that too, especially when they make an attempt to talk about a deep emotional challenge.

It was nice to see that part again and hear Robin Williams say,
"I know" too.

Well, just offering up some of my thoughts here. Whether is does anything for you mood or not? Idk, I tried.

OE