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Old Jun 23, 2014, 10:42 AM
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I got 36. I definitely don't have DID but I have some kind of DD-NOS thing going on.

My therapist explained dissociation to me early on after something that happened in a session and it made so much sense as it's something I did a lot in childhood. Basically I came in one week and got angry with my T, I was having a go at him and I started shaking. He asked why I was shaking. I gave him reasons. Next session I told him I'd had no idea I was shaking as I couldn't feel my body. He asked why I gave him answers anyway. I said it was like I went into a space where I couldn't feel anything and I also couldn't argue or do anything except comply.
I really relate.

When I dissociate in session, I get silent and can't move. I can't speak, even if I try. It's like my voice doesn't work and my muscles tense up. I end up thinking and feeling that I need to be as still and as quiet as possible to become invisible.
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