(((((((((((((((((((Echoes)))))))))))))))))))

I can completely relate to what you said above about wanting to have her come and just sit beside you, with her arms around you ... how comforting that would feel, yet how much you know that it couldn't really ever happen like that. I think that this is a very common thing for "us" to feel about a T or a important person in our lives ....

The desire to feel loved is a human and biological need ... if part of you feels like you never got that sort of love, or the love that you needed at one point in your life then it makes perfect sense why you would be feeling like this. Even if this wasn't a case ... your T is someone who probably knows a lot about you, and just that fact alone can make us feel vulnerable, or just feel like our feelings and thoughts need to be justified.

I wish i knew what to tell you about how to get around this .. but i dont know if its that easy. I myself am stuggling with something similar (with someone important to me, and my old T) and i know how hard it is to have all these feelings about someone yet be scared to truly acknowledge them (especailly to your T) and to yourself. Its scary when you feel so "needy" -for lack of a better word- ... but just know that its normal. Its okay to feel like this ... and things will become easier ... or at least i hope they do!

I guess i'm not helping much, but i just wanted you to know that i really can empathize with you, and that you are not alone.

Hang in there and try to be easy on yourself.
Jacq