I'm with Dex why did your T say he didn't wish you to go... because it should be IN YOUR BEST INTEREST what your T says, having nothing to do with your T, right?

My T used to never "tell" me his wishes or which side he was on and allowed me to make my own decisions, but realized, after many ooops on my part, and after my pleading ... that I need his input. With that said, I also need to not impeach him and what he says and take it for what it is: GOOD ADVICE with my best interest in mind.

If you don't go and see him, can you call and tell him your T doesn't think you're up to coming by? (Blame it on your T.) And talk to him about how you are so glad that.... however you want to put it... that he's still alive...?