I can't shake this. I either feel just flat and low, or I start to get anxious. When will this end? I try to tell myself that I have beaten this every other time it has hit me (this is my 4th episode of depression in my life, I am 47) so it is just a matter of time and meds tweaking but I just feel so down right now.

I got myself out of bed this morning just long enough to get the kids their breakfasts and lunch and see them off to school...and then I went back to bed for two hours. Finally got myself up, managed a shower, and am trying to get some things done at home so that I don't feel like a complete loser. I called my pdoc's office to see if I could get in this week instead of next (when my actual appointment is), of course I got the answering machine. I really hope I can get in sooner, i need something to change because I feel like my life is escaping me.