First off: what can I do - I can/am
- sing
- dance
- give speeches
- read well to a crowd
- write well
- good at academics
- good at artistic stuffs - like painting, sketching, etc
- good at teaching
- good with adults and kids alike
- to list some things I can think of myself.
But what pulls down my self-worth - my flirty attitude (which I did for fun without hurting anyone) and that I "lost" my virginity(along with it I lost everything apparently) to my ex.
Now I am called a "b**ch", "pros*****e", "dirty person", "worst girl", "not even worthy to be called a girl", etc.
By whom - no one other than the person I love a hell lot.
Really feeling so damn low. I am crying publicly every time he shouts at me for this, and he yells more that I've no self-esteem. He asks me what kind of a girl I am to cry in public. But I can't. I can't bear being called all that. I NEVER cheated on him. I NEVER did anything to him - he admits it. But he keeps yelling - everyday - more so when we are apart and cannot meet because of work stuff.
I am breaking. I hate myself for my previous relationships.
I feel like I am nothing.