Feeling kind of crappy today. Had a bad day yesterday. First, when visiting my brother and his family, my sister-in-law implied that I was infringing on their family time and my visits were unwelcome. Then, a friend of mine with whom I've been communicating a lot by facebook and email told me that it's draining to have someone in your life who's depressed (meaning me). They both just made me feel guilty for having this depression and needing to reach out to people. It makes me feel weak that I have to reach out so much, but I can't help it. I need human interaction.

Now I'm worried that they won't be there for me - - so who will? Or will I just keep chasing people away with my neediness? This depression SUCKS. It's robbing me of everything, including my self-respect and sense of dignity.