Hello all,

I have talked about Facebook before on here. But it's really, really fascinating to me.

Last year around this time, I was feeling very depressed and even suicidal. I went to the hospital to try and get help. After this, my friends couldn't handle me. I don't know what it was, but the group of friends that i had at the time just couldn't accept that I was feeling this way. They didn't want to handle it. They didn't know how to handle it. So they stopped talking to me. One of them had been my best friend since grade 4 and we had lived together for 3 years up until several months before - when she decided to move in with her boyfriend of three months instead. She didn't even text me when she moved in with him either for two weeks - I actually only met with her when a mutual friend both invited us out for a breakfast date. I was her best friend for all those years and yet she didn't even text me when I was depressed. Not even a hey whats up? Nothing.

I also found out she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, ADHD, and borderline personality disorder. But that's beside the point.

Anyways, I had been wanting to get away from her for some time. I just didn't know how. And our lives were so intertwined.

Especially on Facebook.

We had taken several trips and she had all the photos on her fAcebook. There were a lot of photos of good times we'd had. also, I posted on her wall all these cool new ideas that I'd have.



Anyways. After her and the group of friends we had in common stopped talking to me after I'd called out for help and gone for it - I couldn't go on Facebook. I couldn't stand the sight of their faces. Also, I was depressed and everyone seems to share about how good their life is on Facebook or happy events and shtuff like that.. and I just didn't want to see it. I didn't want to feel like more of a loser than I already felt.

Then I slowly started going on Facebook more.

I got help, was eventually diagnosed with ADHD, and I started posting about happy events I was experiencing. I got a new job. I met the love of my life (really and truly - not some weird kind of rebound or excuse to not be alone).

I was posting about it because I wanted to throw it in their faces... the friends who stopped talking to me - yet still had me on their Facebook. I wanted them to see and it to be a huge F*$# YOU!



anyways. It's a year later, and a couple of days ago.. I realized that I don't need them to see how awesome I'm doing now. and I don't need to occasionally creep their Facebooks to be like "thank God they stopped talking to me.. because I wouldn't want to be their friends anyways.. was I drunk the whole time I was a part of this group?" (and the answer to that is no, I was high - but that is another story as well).

So I deleted them off of my Facebook.


And it's like I have this weight lifted off of my chest that I didn't even know existed.


Does anyone have similar experiences with Facebook? Keeping friends on there that you don't really want to have but doing it because you feel like you'd be missing out on something if you didn't have them on there?


also, can anyone tell me why ppl still keep pictures of their exes up on their profile? Like.. when they're already in a relationship with another person.. isn't it weird to look back through their photos and see a picture of their ex? My bf hasn't done this, actually - the only reason he got FAcebook was because I encouraged him too and to keep in touch with friends from college.. but like especially if you're the other person in the current relationship with them.. wouldn't it bother you? ??