Hi Nowhere USA,
I do not know if this will help or not but I am reading a book right now that is called The Mindful Way through Depression freeing yourself of chronic depression by Mark Williams. It is dealing with mediation and instead of the doing mode the being mode. I am not completely done with it yet but once I can make it a habit I think it will help me. This is not a easy read also my book came with the CD. This was suggested by my therapist it is basically homework for me. I have been in depression starting around 15 years of age and now 51. As you stated my therapist is great and she has been working with me for the past 9 years so I have been were you are and it is tough really tough but just keep pushing forward and you do have people who definitely care about you here and understand how you feel. Hang in there...