I'm 17 years old and a female and I have absolutely no desire for any kind of intimacy despite being in a relationship with an 18 year old boy. It all grosses me out. Kissing, especially making out makes me want to gag and I hate doing it but I feel pressured because my boyfriend is a horn-dog. He constantly morphs normal conversations into it HAVING to be about sex or flirtation and he keeps pressuring me about doing it. I DON'T WANT TO! I'm gentle but I tell him I'm not ready and I'm not comfortable with intimacy but he still expects us to be all intense and stuff because that's what he likes. It's to the point where I purposely avoid him because I don't want to have to deal with him wanting to be intimate or talking about sex. It's gross. He's attractive to some level but I'm veery picky about hygiene and he is never clean shaven and his teeth are a hell sent mess. I also know he's had sex with at least 2 other girls.

A close friend of mine who is 15 and a girl does the same thing and it drives me mad. When we hang out ALL she wants to talk about is sex, who she's dated, the twenty people she likes, who is attractive, on and on. It's gross. Everything about sex is gross to me - like exchanging bodily fluids like saliva and jizz and eww. I just hate it.

I haven't always been this way. I had an ex boyfriend I was very much intimate with and mostly enjoyed it. But after that relationship I sort of emotionally shut down and hated the idea of any relationship and avoided them at all costs, to the point I was mentally swearing off ever getting married or having kids.

Now I'm regretting being in a relationship in the first place if this is what it means. I'm so frustrated I could cry. The most intimate thing I want in my life is for my cat to cuddle with me.

Is there something wrong with me? I don't see myself ever enjoying it. How do I stop him from pressuring me? He's so sensitive if I end it he'll throw a fit.

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