ECT used to freak me out too... but I've kind of just come to a place where I'm like "Yeah, I could do that."

I've done well over a dozen medications, enhancers (like Abilify), etc. I had to write them down in a notebook (full page!) so I could remember them.

My T is working hard to find another answer. I really, really like DBT because it's so practical. I didn't get good emotional support growing up (had all the other supports, but my depression was taboo) so it's been good to give me skills. My T tells me that I'm one of his hardest working clients and I know it's been a process for him to work with me because he hates seeing me put in so much effort and not seemingly get much out of it :-/