Hey AppalachianAxis. I'm sexually anorectic myself and can really relate to your situation.

I'm a 30 year old male. I haven't been in a romantic relationship or had sexual intercourse. I have a lot of toxic shame about sex, my sexuality, sexual feelings/urges, etc. My family was really sex-negative. Due to the negative messages they conveyed about sex, I grew up thinking/believing that sex was bad, shameful, immoral, dirty, wrong, etc.

I'm also addicted to pornography and masturbation. While they are a problem, I believe that my main issue is sexual anorexia, and the porn and masturbation are the way I self-medicate to deal with the pain and suffering from not being able to form intimate relationships and have a healthy outlet for my sexuality.