I deal with depression and an anxiety disorder(s). I have not been happy with my life in many years, but since starting an antidepressant (Cipralex) i've become more aware of this. For a long time I was
so focused on my depression and all of the fears that I have had that not only did this keep me from doing more with my life, but I didn't even care about anything else but the depression and anxiety. I still deal with an
"empty" feeling of depression and anxiety that seems more like OCD (I don't really worry about daily life anymore, I don't feel anxious about the future or about doing things) with more intrusive thoughts and other
OCD syptoms. I have not had friends in many years, and have not done anything in years that I enjoy either. Right now I don't have much going on with my life except volunteering once a week (I am starting college
in August, which I am looking forward to, but it's still a few months away). Recently I applied for some jobs (I have not recieved any calls back yet) but now i'm unsure of whether or not I should find work right now, or if I should continue to focus on my emotional (and physical) health for a while before I do that. I still deal with quite a bit of anxiety/depression and my physical health is not very good (i'm constantly tired and I need to quit smoking cigarettes badly). Although I am bored with my life and want to do more with it, at the same time I still feel indifferent about it. Does anyone else with depression feel this way, or can anyone offer any suggestions? Thanks.