Thanks everyone. I just feel so overwhelmed sometimes. I live in a small rural area, so anything like support groups are really lacking unless you want to drive an hour or so away. There is one place for therapy of any kind. I do have my family to live for, and I'm trying to continue with my hobbies - even though my heart's not really in them right now. Thanks for the suggestions Alison. I do really think I need more time to focus on myself, and maybe that's some of the problem. I feel no one around me really understands what all I'm dealing with and just how hard it is sometimes. Some days I just feel I've been punched in the chest because of the pain and loss. My son is 10 and has Asperger's with some developmental delays, short term memory problems, possible ADD. He was diagnosed with it - but I'm not so sure. I think there may just be some mental impairment. He's going into 4th grade and his ability is only that of a 1st grader - again this year. No improvement at all. And I kind of get the blame for it because I did try to work with him every evening, even during summers, on reading, spelling, math, but after the fire I lost all my materials plus just didn't have the strength to deal with that. And my parents still ask, "Have you been working with him??" "Uh - not yet..." I know I need to start it back up again, but I haven't yet. I need books, some stuff off the internet... The husband gripes at me because there's dust on things or the litter box needs changed or etc. Some days I'm doing well to just get out of bed and get dressed and my teeth brushed. As far as responsibilities, my son does a few things. We have a few chickens, so he gets the eggs every morning, feeds them at night... He could probably do some other things if I thought on it a little.