Having recently started therapy (knowing I should have a long time ago), I'm sure feeling more damaged than before. Just because I've not allowed myself to face these issues. I'm in there for depression/anxiety/PTSD, but marriage issues is what really brought me in. But I'm learning in order to get to the present we need to start at the beginning.....and it's not only scary, but helps one realize just how messed up things can be.

One GOOD thing I have going for me is that I think my T and I are a GREAT match. I truly am not a people person, and have pretty extensive social anxiety issues as well. But she has the disposition that allowed me to open up right away, and feel comfortable. I won't say I haven't had anxiety issues going in there, complete with the (noticeable) shakes, but she just keeps talking, and eases me out of that.

I'm increasing from once a week to twice....I'm thankful she's willing to do that for me. I chose her on blind faith, and it worked out. She's awesome! So even though I'm realizing just how messed up I am, I think I have the perfect person to help me through.