I know the feeling you're talking about. I wake up in the morning fairly average, I get a lot better during the day, and during the night, it's kind of a mixed bag almost. But nighttime is usually when my mood takes a nosedive for the worse. And as for your mother and friend, I'm in that same situation. My mother just calls me a hypochondriac and tells me I'm fine, and my best friend tells me that I'm welcome to talk to her anytime. But I feel like a burden when I do. I wish I could say I knew how you felt about your friend, but I don't. I'm sorry about it I seriously understand what you mean by changing though. I know it's just me and the rest of the world is getting on normally. Personally, what I find helps me keep from being sad is to just distract myself. If I'm not doing anything, I'll go from happy to sad in a second, so I try to always talk to people or work on something just to keep my mind away. I hope that you feel better. And by the way, don't worry Everyone has an issue, so you're not alone. I promise that you'll find someone who will understand you You can do it, don't worry xoxo