I'm sure more than one alcoholic has started off with those exact same words.

Thing is just like other drugs the body develops a tolerance so where one drink used to give you that feeling, suddenly you need two and then three. Next thing you know you're drinking a bottle of vodka a night to get the same feeling you used to get from a couple of shots.

Seems to me you're using alcohol to become a person you feel you want to be. (Your perceptions are also skewed when you've been drinking so what may be confidant and fun to you may be abrasive and annoying to the people around you.)

Wouldn't it be better to work on yourself and change those things rather than relying on a crutch that may just make things worse?