((((((((((((((((0xwaterx0))))))))))))))))))))) Maybe you just aren't ready yet to talk to someone. That is all right. I would encourage you to keep checking in with yourself to find when you are ready. It's wonderful that you are looking for other outlets. Please keep trying different ones until you find the one best suited for you. I am so happy that you are trying to stay positive. You really are doing some great things. Take care and stay safe.