You know I don't know the answer to that. I do know alcohol is rarely the answer. It's a band-aid that covers up the wound but doesn't heal it maybe even makes it worse.

If you can be this person while under the influence then there's a good chance you can be that person without. It might take a lot of work but you won't know if you keep hiding.

Why does alcohol help you so much? Does it make you feel braver? Do you care less about the consequences of what you do when you've been drinking?