I'm having a really tough time. Life just isnt worth living. But at the same time I'm scared cause I have a plan. I tried reaching out to my pdoc but she's busy. But she said to let her know if something urgent comes up. It's not worth it. I wouldnt know what to say to her anyways. Plus she doesnt have time for me. I just dont know what to do. I feel like I have no choice...