You don't really sound like you love her.... it sounds a lot more like you view her as a posession that's not meeting your standards. I'm sorry that it sounds mean, but that's how I read that.
You make the assumption that she dislikes having sex with you (hypocritically, I'm also making an assumption here as your words are a bit unclear! Please correct me and clarify if she's actually said to you that she doesn't like to have sex with you) - you might be misreading her body signals and just interpreting her wrong.
You say that she's never cheated on you, and yet you take the word of her exes over her. What has she done to earn that distrust?
You've called her loose, and said that she doesn't have many morals (because she lives in a city?!?! wtf, judgemental there!). How is that encouraging a healthy relationship? You are judging her in a very negative manner and you've essentially fabricated what you're judging her on! She is not "loose" - her sexual experiences are her choice and there is nothing wrong with them - they are just "wrong" to you. That's your problem, not hers. Her morals might be different from yours, but it doesn't make them wrong or less moral - it's just your judgement and it sounds from your judgement of her that you likely don't even know what her morals are, as you're making assumption that all city people have low/no morals....
You lose your temper with her and you fight all the time.... because of her past. What a great way to kill any potential with her, and what an excellent way to destroy her and hurt her...... Her past is her past. There is nothing wrong with her past. The problem lies with you and your attitude towards her past. If you cannot handle her past experiences, then don't be with her. End of story. She can't go and change the past.
It sounds like your issues are actually about your insecurities, but you're taking them out on her instead of dealing with them yourself. She cannot fix your insecurities, and it isn't her job to do so.
"How can girls behave so?" is how you have ended your post. How exactly is she behaving? It sounds like she is staying in a potentially abusive relationship..... how she can be doing that, I have no idea. It must mean she likes you. You're judging her for having sex with her previous partners. Hello, she has had sex with you too. You're being a huge hypocrite by judging her behaviour in her past when she's doing the same thing in her relationship with you. If you want to date a virgin, then use a dating site made for that.
There is nothing wrong, in any way, with girls choosing to be sexually active. We don't owe anyone our virginity, and we can do what we wish with our sex lives - just as men can.
If you want to feel more successful in bed - ask her what she wants. She'll likely be willing to teach you and give you guidance if you want to improve.
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