I can't even explain everything. I feel like I'm trapped. But I don't feel any emotion except feeling depressed. I feel like I don't deserve to be here. Even one of my teachers was like "if you don't like it here then maybe you should leave" I mean yea he was talking about school but I can't help to think it has another meaning.

I wish I had a better life. I probably shouldn't wish for that but everything would be better. I mean I might still deal with depression but then I can hide it better. Or I can at least talk back to the bullies. I really don't think I will ever be like that though so why wish?