I'm going by memory, so correct me if I'm vague on the details, but didn't you hurt yourself over your therapist? Didn't you threaten to harm yourself pretty much expecting him to rescue you? I seem to remember something about nearly throwing yourself down a flight of stairs or something (hope I don't have you confused with someone else). That isn't normal, healthy attraction. That is pretty clearly some form of transference going on: that fear of abandonment; that hope to be rescued.