Hi,
I'm new to this forum and not even sure I am in the right place. Does this sound like depression? I am not sure what is going on or if there is anything to be done about it.

I just cannot be bothered to do much of anything. Near 50, I have worked hard in my life, never really gaining much appreciation for excellent work but always trying very hard and doing my best. I have followed several dreams, lived them, and done well enough but never stellar. There is nothing from my youth that I wanted to do that I haven't done already.

A few years ago something changed and I began to think, 'why bother?' I don't want to work or even be in a relationship because I have always ended up giving and giving and giving and being taken for granted. It is simply not worth the effort. I am tired of it all.

Now I am in a position to be able to not work, be on my own, walk the dog, and see or talk with a friend about once a week. I spend my time reading, gardening, surfing the web, and doing little bits of volunteer work, mostly on the computer. Family is unsafe (emotionally) and completely draining.

I used to play a lot of music but just don't care about it anymore. I do enjoy my dog and that is the only thing that gives me a lot of pleasure.

It would be really helpful to get feedback. Is this depression, or is it simply time to retire? Thanks for your thoughts.