Thank you "The Skeezyks"...right now what I am doing is not working in any way at all. I've not been this miserable in all of my nearly 50 years on this planet. Holding on seems so pointless, but it is what I have to do...I think I'm at the "dull acceptance" as you so aptly phrase it. I want to move on, but I don't know where I can go...limbo defined...