I went back and read some more about your relationship with your therapist.

She could lose her license if her confidentiality breaches were reported. I have a lot of strong words about her behavior, but that's neither here nor there. If you want to hear them, I'll share.

She has a clear self-interest in keeping you away from here, where people will point out that she's acting unethically. I don't think you can trust that she is recommending that for your benefit.

I know it's hard to hear people criticize someone who matters so much to you, but I hope you at least make some appointments for consultation with another therapist to evaluate whether she's helping you.

I'm sorry you're going through all of this. Consistent, clear boundaries and confidentiality are the bedrocks upon which helpful therapy is built.