OK, so i'm brand new to the forum and I posted my intro earlier. I was led in this direction so I figured I would give a good description on what is going on.

I'm in my early 30's I have a great job, house, etc...However I have this overwhelming feeling of unhappiness within me. This feeling is driving a drinking habit that is quickly causing issues at my job and relationships, which in turn makes me slide deeper into whatever this is. If I lose my job I will be hard pressed to find another that pays as well as i'm not a college grad or have any discernible skills. My wedding is coming up later this year and I should be excited about it but, like all things in my life i'm unhappy with the prospect of married life.

I have a tendency to shut myself off, make excuses not to leave the house, the only time i'm in a good mood is when the shades are drawn, I have something alcoholic to drink, and I'm alone. Which brings full circle the work aspect of this. What is strange is I see myself doing these things and basically am to weak or helpless to stop myself. Its like I can only live in a world of chaos...I don't know...maybe I just need a hobby.