Three weeks ago, maybe not even that long, I was at that point too. It did change, I got very excited by the change but then I slipped back a little. Progress is frustratingly slow, but by knowing that you won't give up you have made progress.

Sometimes I think choosing to survive is not given enough credit by the docs. They always judge on risk and not on effort or bravery. You are making the effort, you are being brave and those two things alone make you a caring and worthy son, father and husband.

Like Skeezyks I'm a dull acceptance person too. The depression will always be there not matter how hard I try, so I just have to suck it up. What got me through my last crisis was posting and whining away on PC.

We all feel for you and are waiting for that post that says "today was not as bad as yesterday", it will happen for you, but I can't say when.