Fuzzy,
What happens to you happens to many people irl. This is because we have been educated in certain way, to believe in certain things that are not totally true. For example, the idea that we can transform everything with love and that love cures everyone and everything. It doesn't. That if you give enough love to somebody that does not know how to love this person will finally love. But it does not work always like that. That if you are "good" you behave "well" always, you never speak badly about others or wish bad things to others. You are always working to keep doing good things but there are people that cannot care less. They only care about themselves, more or less. And, as I see the world evolving, the last group is augmenting every day. We are going nowhere with this egotism spreading but, the whole world cannot be on our shoulders while others just continue living carelessly. We need to find better people to be around and get some solace