My T and I spent yesterday talking about some coping techniques she wanted me to practice this week in between appointments. One is having a safe place to go to mentally and the other is having a container to put distressing things in.

But I am finding it really difficult to actually have them be effective. I feel so anxious right now, but I don't know why. Something I saw/thought/read about triggered it, I'm sure. But I don't know what that is or what it actually triggered. And so I don't have anything I can put into my container (I chose books on a bookshelf, like writing down things and sticking mental pictures in a scrap-book type album and putting those on the shelf). And I just struggle all around with the "go to your safe place" technique. I can't really escape reality in that way. I feel like such a failure because it isn't working. I know it's only been a day, but if it's not working now, how can I know it will in the future? I want to cry because I don't know if anything will ever really work.