Hi estrellabonita,

I like your screen name(pretty star )

I'm sorry you are struggling. I found myself in much of your post-- I don't go out at all -- I haven't any IRL friends. I worry that my husband is searching for a new mate-- even though there is no evidence of it. I get my stomach all in knots when he talks to other females--even if it's for his work.

I also worry that people say bad things about me when I'm not around... and it's hard for me to let others know where I live.

I also kept all this to myself for years and years..... it's not a good thing to do though(believe me-- I've paid for doing so)-- it's good you have expressed your struggles here. Hope you will continue to.

I'll help any way I can-- though I struggle with similar so I might not be of much help-- but I can listen.

Please know that thoughts are just that-- "thoughts" and are often-- for some of us--- not reality.

You can PM me if you feel more comfortable with that. I do that a lot with some very kind people here.

Take care-- estrellabonita

mandy