Left the house, talked to a real live person today! A psych nurse from my docs office. She was so concern about the depression not responding she arranged an appointment for me at a PHP. Gee that's what I asked for months ago before starting all these meds. ok my attitude is bad, mega bad and in all fairness the meds have helped the mixed symptoms and I'm not suicidal any more, just have apathetic depression left to deal with and finding some reason to live.