I've tried to be real good since my session this week and not pick apart every word my T said looking for the negative.

Well, nice try. Last night, I had a bad dream instead. I could see my T so clearly at his house/office. There was another guy there too and it wasn't T's normal assistant. That part was weird.

Anyway, the guy was telling me that my sessions were over and that they treat patients similarly to drug addicts when quitting cold turkey. At some point, they just terminate the sessions without notice.

I freaked out and was running all around looking and calling for my T. He finally came out and was like 'we need to do this or you'll never be independent'...I was saying over and over, 'why and how can you do this to me' and crying.

Even my husband and mom were there and begging him to keep seeing me. Yikes!!! How desperate am I sounding in this dream?

I woke up around 3:00am and just felt awful. Every time I went back to sleep, the dream continued...the only somewhat good part was that my T had this very sad look on his face like he didn't want me to go but I had to.

I'm sure this is all about the fear that my insurance company will tell me they won't cover any more sessions and we'll have to majorly reduce or stop. This better not happen!!