I was thinking, just an hour ago or so, maybe I should decide right now I just can't live like this anymore. There are some things I could do. But it would be like "Pick Up Sticks". Throw everything into the air, see where it all lands & then try to pick up as many sticks as possible. The idea scares the bejeebers out of me. So instead, I just keep slogging along in dull acceptance mode.