Hi I have been making myself ill by not taking my medication for my ongoing illness.

The main reason I have not been taking it is really because I feel no better when I am on it and it is making my blood tests go odd. Also I am unemployed and before I had my illness my family were always asking me what jobs I had applied for and what interviews I had coming up and so on. So I feel that since I have this illness for as long as it takes I am not receiving this pressure from my family. Does that sound weird? I know I ought to do the right thing in taking the medication and I've already stopped it once before (as some fellow sufferers at my local meeting group kept on about me having another possible illness that my medication may worsen, turned out I did not have this other illness at all) which my doctor knows about.
I have no problems going back on the medication, I just don't want this pressure on me to find work as it is hard enough for me already - I have been without a job for over a year simply because for one thing I just can't find anything and secondly I haven't felt well enough to.

I have also been told I am mineral deficient and my levels are dangerously low but that doesn't seem to bother me. I feel as though I just don't care anymore.