I've been having a rough week or well weeks I guess but the anorexia has continued to get worse. This place is all to familiar when it got so bad a few years ago while in college. When it got this way in college I was accepted to a residential eating disorders program but couldn't go because of finanical reasons. I go to an outpatient eating disorder clinic now and today I tried to explain that I needed more help then handing me a meal plan. It is past that point. But they didn't seem concerned at all. It is just fueling that eating disorder though process of well I'm not sick enough, I'm not thin enough, and I guess I don't deserve help. I finally have insurance and the money and I can't get the help I want which is really hard for me to even admit that I need help in the first place. This is dumb I know but I tried to say something because I know how quickly it gets even worse.