i dont know if this is the right site for this but I need to talk to someone about it because i have no idea what to do and its starting to effect my relationships and my life.

everytime ive had sex from the time since i lost my virginity i had sex for the guy to stick around. it was something intitmate to do it was just a physical act. from when i was 17 and on i found that guys wanted to have sex with me. and if they wanted to sleep with me isnt that the same thing as wanting me? in my head it was. and so i continued on the path that i was one. and just gets worse. i mean my body reacts to it but my emotions dont.

this is a problem because obviously sex is a part of a relationship. a big part and i want to be able to enjoy it when i get with the partner again. it has effected my past relationships to the point that i dont refuse. i never have it doesnt matter if i get physical enjoyment out of it.

i dont know how to fix this in my brain to equate to sex not guys wanting me and usingbut sex that cane be something to be shared with a partner. to make love....