Very happy to be reading your reply. Finding someone out there that understands what you are going through is very comforting. I saw my doctor today and he highly recommends talk therapy ASAP. I will follow up after come back from vacation. My day went better today, I did lots of driving, this makes me feel in control. I stopped at a nursery and spent 30 min. walking around the beautiful plants and flowers. I have been very quiet today, just contemplating the storm around me, but with my feet on the ground. Thanks for the idea of asking a friend out. I hope you will have a great day tomorrow. Someone on the other side of the map is sending XXOO.