I was always kind of weird. I had these paranoid ideas as a 7-8 year old that people hated me so when I went to visit them I would try not to move around too much so it would be easier for them to remove my presence once I had actually left.

In terms of a major sign though at around 12/13 having just been on the receiving of yet another verbally abusive tirade from my father I attempted to over dose on pills I'd been prescribed for stress headaches. (Failed miserably. Didn't even need to got to the hospital.)

It wasn't until I was 16 and my then girlfriends baby daddy threatened to take her son because of our relationship and I OD'ed because I thought it would make her life easier if I were gone that I came to the attention of the necessary people though.