We do not choose our reactions/our feelings, we choose our responses, what we "do". Thoughts and feelings happen :-) Our task is to use our thoughts and feelings and stimuli we receive from outside to decide on our actions forward. If one has a problem or situation, illness, etc., whatever you want to call it, you get to decide if it is "okay" with you or not and, if not, what to do about it.

Many people think they are supposed to "control" their thoughts and feelings but that is impossible. My little head is going to think what it thinks and feel what it feels! However, if I think :-) it doesn't do something as well as I like, I'm going to work to change that. At the moment, it is 4:40 a.m. and I'm up in the middle of the night and I would rather be getting a good night's sleep? I have a cold at the moment so I know I just have to wait a few days and I will feel better but it is not the first night I've been up when I'd rather be sleeping. So, I'm working on my sleep habits, my diet, reviewing my meds/general health, etc. to see how I can help myself.

I do not "blame" myself for being up in the middle of the night. No point -- there's a good saying I like, "Fix the problem, not the blame". But I realize it is "my" problem and only I can work on it, it is not something from something or someone else that has come into my life and captured me :-) Sometimes I am awake in the night worrying about stuff. If you like, that is my own fault. Only I can do anything about what makes me anxious to help myself feel more secure. Just worrying doesn't do anything useful and I don't like how it feels.

As a child, I use to get out of the bath and be really cold so I would squat down and huddle against the toilet, the towel around my back? Still cold :-) but I was more concerned with how much colder it would be if I got up! So, I was "stuck". But that was all "me"; yes, it is colder when you get up but one does not "die" from the cold and it is the only way to get dry/in warm pajamas and bed, the sooner the better. OCD is an anxiety problem and one does not die from facing one's anxieties and doing something about them rather than just doing the minimum/huddling against the toilet, to feel slightly better than doing nothing/exposing one's self to the cold, would.