About 10 days ago, I started feeling significantly better than I have done for months. Five beautiful days, before the anxiety kicked in. Now I feel that I am about to lose everything. I'm terrified that the blood tests I've just had will show up something that means I'll have to stop my ant-depressants, the scan I've just had will show .... well who knows what. Worst of all I fear that those five days were nothing more than the placebo effect.