Hi there, I can really relate to this. I am beginning to accept my diagnosis, a lot more than before. But even now, I'm never sure. It's so hard with mental illnesses, because they aren't always tangible. It's not like a broken leg, where you can actually SEE that something physical is broken. I suppose it also depends on the severity of your illness. I was diagnosed Bipolar 2, and sometimes the symptoms seem a bit vague. I've always put it down to hyperactivity, and then just needing to be alone. But as I got older it got worse and worse, and the 'needing to be alone' turned into actual depression. And the hyperactivity, got a bit more, well, mental. The Doctor told me she has never seen a clearer case of Bipolar 2, and I still only partially believe her! All I can say is, that when I take the treatment, my life dramatically improves. I'm stable. I realize all of a sudden what it's like for people who don't have dramatic mood-swings and don't have an internal battle waging in their mind all the time. But then when I feel 'normal', I stop taking the meds, because I think I'm completely fine. A couple of months later, my head is a bit of a mess again. Anyway, after 2 years of doing this, I'm contemplating listening to the Doctor I've never been one to take advice, or follow orders, and I think it stems from this. I like to test things for myself. I'm not saying this is the correct thing to do! It's just the way it is. I hope this helps. Maybe you feel similarly. In conclusion, I have the feeling that the Doctor is right and I should probably accept the diagnosis and just find the best way to manage it into the future.